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Sometimes life is just like that. I feel like i can get anything i want , i almost have everything i want in the world. Whatever i want , i can get it. But, then i realise some times, some things just cant get it back. If a dead could be revive, how great would it be?
The reason , i am saying this because, i lost my gan jie. To me , gan jie, is like a family, someone so close, more close than gan kor or gan di. She is my only gan jie. not because i cant get more gan jie, but cos, my gan jie is really unique, someone that really knows me very well. jie met me many occasions ever since sec 4 . Whenever i am stress, she would sit by me , talk all her problems. some of u might have seen her, she came to my school , Ijc in year one, and also many other occasions. She will tell me her problems. Many says that shes a very quiet person. But my jie, to me she talks a lot to me. maybe we have a lot of connections. To tell u the truth, i dont have gal best fren. and it will never ever happen. Its only a friend, girl friend thats all. After months and years, I became her gan di.
Jie, u left this world for good. U been telling me for months , i neglected you. In my dreams , i see u, but i never msg u. I only started to feel strange when u kept coming to my dreams and u never msg me for 9 months. Jie , these 9 months i kw u know i had exams, u didnt wanna disturb me, i know. U kept ur problems like u always do. seems so nice , when we sat together at sentosa, watch the waves , as the skies turned dark, we kept silent and can remain at the same spot for 3 hours or more. Jie, ur my only gan sis, that i ever have in this world. your pretty in my heart and i love you. Please take care of urself.
I didnt had mood for anything, no mood for prom, sleepless nights, my eyes turned red , eye bags, i came to prom like i didnt know there is prom, i didnt care. i just wear what i have.
Jie, i will be alright, I know u finally have peace. The treat that u promised u wana give me , forget it, u havent given me more than enough. Take care alright. I will be alright. di love you.